Why does it have to be so difficult?

This finding a place to live thing is really stressing me out. I don't think I'm mature enough to handle this. I spent most of the day calling people about possible apartments and for the most part left disappointed. It's not because there are not apartments available. On contrary, there are a lot of apartments available in the Iowa City area but not what I want. Of all the people I talked to only one complex has a 1 bedroom apartment that allows cats. I don't have a cat yet but my friend Elizabeth's uncle breeds Maine Coon cats. One of his mama cats needs a good home and I was hoping to provide that for her but now I don't know. This apartment is one of the higher priced apartments and there is a pet fee on top of the rent. So, now the question I am asking myself is my want for a cat is more then my desire for something else? If I have a cat, what am I willing to give up? But the best question is can I really afford to have a cat? I've never lived alone before so I thought having a cat would help with the loneliness of not having a roommate and really I have wanted my own cat since I moved out of my parents house. I love our cat, Mittens but she lives in Marion and I only get to see her once and while. I miss having a cat sleep with you at night and wake you up in the morning and snuggling with you as you watch TV. But then again, I have lived 5 years without a cat, I can wait another year right? I'm so confused. Maybe it will be a good idea to see how I do by myself for a year. I can see how much money I have left over every month. Maybe I will have enough to keep a cat and maybe I won't. Now I have all these options but none of them is really what I want. I really don't know what to do. Maybe moving back home isn't such a bad idea after all. Oh, wait. Yes it is.